We talked about a lot of things, but we never had the best communication when it came to emotions. I know, on occasion, I hurt you or you felt judged by me. I wanted to say sorry. The lack of communication when it came to our feelings was our biggest flaw, not just yours or mine, but us as friends. I’m sorry for my share. Truly, I am.
I understand why you cut off communication with everyone after high school. I was surprised at first but then I thought about it and it made sense, even if I didn’t know all your reasons. You’ve always been very sensitive and I suppose you wanted to start over fresh. But if there were any resentments in the decision, I wanted to apologize for my part of things. I think we were both in positions to hurt each other sometimes, and we never opened up enough to work out what needed to be worked out.
As much as I could, I tried to be a good friend. I made mistakes, but I tried to be faithful in keeping your secrets and just being there. I hope you’re doing well, wherever you are, and I hope you’re living for yourself and not to please others. You’re an intelligent, beautiful girl but I know your confidence is easy to bruise. Just try not to be unfair to yourself — that’s what I worry about most when I think of you.
No matter what anyone says or what you think, you are wonderful.
Be well, my Silly-Oofa.
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